Monday, September 29, 2008
>4 papers past =DD
soo happy... now mug for hcl paper 2... hmmm only summary nid learn and look at shou ce =DD
den lit and maths... maths aiya look at formula 5 min can already den lit... MUUG LOR xD
everytime after paper... i would think abt a qn... abt her... isit time??.. or isit not... i am srry... i dunno abt my feelings... its not me.. its my feelings... can we be frens??... i dunno... can i give you up??... i am on my way... but i may give up... srry esther... i dun think that we have to be this way... ignoring each other... # posted by
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Friday, September 26, 2008
>ps pple... no time go think of colors and size and waste time liao...
ytd.... no time post... but hope i am not too late...
happy birthday marcus....
i mean HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARCUS!!... wait... not like this...
erhem...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARCUS TANG!!!! .... hmmm i guess that didnt work.... nvm =D
anw... thx for being my fren.. for 4-6 months(lost count... cus our frenship seems like 2 yrs)... u support me... comfort me when i am sad... for now... if u have any enquiries for the exam... mind asking me... i will try to help u... i do not wan to see u get into combined science.. at least double science! kays??
today...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BENEDICT =DDD
benedict... u brought joy to my school life.... u r such a good fren... although sometimes i hurt u... but dun take it to heart kay?.. i dun mean it... u and marcus had been my best frens... including mardhi and shaun of cus... wat can i say... u guys makes my life... for the past 4-6 months =DD... i doubt there wont be me now w/o our frenship... hope we get to same class next year guys...
frens... they makes ur life... ever realise that??... chinese saying goes at home u nid ur parents outside u nid ur frens...
frens... they r everything... w/o frens... do u think that u can be the way u r now??...
we are awake for 2/3 of our daily life... and abt 3/4 of it we r outside... wif frens... try walking down the streets w/o anyone... walking down a long long streets... try being at sku w/o frens... try sitting down there when pple r toking to each other...
we dun go to sku jus to study... we makes frens... frens that u can rely on... frens that u can share ur problems wif...
for me... defination of frens is... EVERYTHING
do i have endless tears... wont it ever stop... u noe i like u dont u... do u noe y i cry... no... not cus u reject me... not cus of anything... its cus of... nvm...
i cried....
u hurt me... but i still love u esther
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
>mon and tue was terrible... dun wan to tok abt it
today... boring or emo day xD
i dun wan to say everything out...
every day is jus the lengthening of ur life span...
so basically nth special today...
OH WAIT...
SOMEONE PISSED ME OFF MAN
fk that idiot dunno got wat prob seh...
shout here shout there... sarcastic hor...
wan say i nvr do the whole ws say la... GO BEAT AROUND THE BUSH for WAT??
u wan beat until got bushfire den happy isit...
oh pathetic creature... i say again... CREATURE
u dun fit to be a human... for fk shyt la ok...
ur attitude stinks ok...
sometimes i think its funny...
ur problem is??
not happy... scold here scold there...
u think u sonia ah???
got prob isit... u wan grey hair faster isit...
go ask ur father for some la...
blacky soooo black...
radiate heat... noob shyt...
warming up the earth...
having u in earth is a waste of resource fk tard
i cried... i cried... and i cried... i make myself look like an idiot... do i love her or do i hate her... no matter how she break my heart... i cant hate her...
Esther... i love u
Sunday, September 21, 2008
>jus went to tampines mall wif family jus now...
walk around... nvr buy things also=.=
ate at crystal jade kitchen... the foods sux
den when going home that time... bought mcflurry AGAIN(sooo not tired of it)
bought 2 and 1 large fries but noticed something was wrong in my father's car...
i was charged 1 mcflurry and 1 large fries!! so thats $2=.=
hahahas
so near yet so far.... i guess that quote is so meaningful...i can say when chances were there i did not grip them tightly... only to let them go as soon as i meet them... i want to smile, jowie... i want to... but expression cant cover emotions... tats something u shld know... or maybe u already know... i may be smiling but deep deep in my heart the pain is still there...
Friday, September 19, 2008
>troubled over feelings... someone ans all these qns for me
what is love?
what is hatred?
what is jealous?
what is pain?
what is life?
what is emo?
what does staring at one girl/boy means?
can u explain how much u love a girl/boy in words?
>LALALA LONG POST TODAY =DD
Thursday
got attire check... tio nail arghh.. poor nail.. so long liao den suddenly mus cut...
mardhi was argueing wif sonia to keep 1 finger until mrs karu come den he stop LOL...
oh.. and mardhi kept his looonnng nails in his shirt pocket.. and at class he take them out and match wif his finger=.=
den after sku.. mug =DD..
went to pp macs and mug hahas...
ermm den dunno y la... some pples say go lbr den in the end come macs=.=..
me yh php and delz were studying lit hahas...
den we played cards... and i dunno gloria went home=.=..
den xiao tian come..
i went over to her den she turn and look me and scream! HAHAS
i walked back and she came to me... php said hi to her and i turn and say hi...
she wanted me to scream LOL
den that grp was soooo loud... but we went home ite
bene found us at the bus-stop after his tuition xDD
and he have to chase for his bus 28... hahahaha
TODAY!!!
hmmm... today.. got IT... mr hazli dunno y... suddenly shouted and hit mardhi wif his great pencil =DD LOL den after sku... got HCL mock exam... soooo diff!!! shytard la...
den ran all the way to tkg bus-stop cus delz went wif ben first w/o me.. but found them at the bus-stop...
go to pp mac again hahas...seems to be my favourite mug place =33
but ite nvr mug... stupid sia...
den gloria bh and est came to macs... TO EAT MAC AND GO HOME LOLS
sooo pro leh... anw we collected 12 mcflurry bottles and stacked them up xD
1
1 1
1 1 1
1 1 1 1
the top one got all the spoons inside
DEN GO HOME and now blogging hahas =DD
chinese paper today was abt life... most of them describe me... in front of me is a crossroad... my soul wanna go >>> i wanna go <<<... the pain i felt as i forced myself to go <<< is excruciating... very very pain.... tearing a soul from a body is terribly pain... in fact... nth can describe this pain... i may put up a strong front... but deep inside me... i am weak.. veryveryvery weak... everyone have a weak point... for me its my heart... u may not known... that after i came home from sku... i feel soo tired... soo tired after tolerating soo much pain... it would be good... if i die and nvr feel this kind of pain again... but... how abt my loved ones... wont they cry??? it will hurts me more... no matter how more i hate my mum's nags... she is still my mum... its for my own good rite?=DD cry cry cry... my only solution... to release my stress... my emotions... any alternative methods...
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
>atupid idiot mother... 1 day dun nag also cannot... keep thinking abt chinese... nvr think of other subject... cb... wts sia... knn nag..NAG AGAIN WTF... got prob meh... pple still full cannot eat dinner yet.. NAG AGAIN... cb fker... late come back home.. stay in sku to do things... not play right... DEN COME HOME CANNOT PLAY... FK LAH... idiot shyt...
ok today stayed back for art... den i paint like shyt... either i overfilled the letters or i didnt fill up enuf.. den touch up overfilled again.. den no mood use marker already... THAT VALERIE TAN IS SOOOO FKTARD LA...
first..
Valerie-"nooo cannot take the red chairs... ltr the sec ones come in sit one"
2nd
Valerie-" 2,4,6,8,10.. 10 pple in a table.."
Ben-" no la 2 tables"
Valerie-" mus seperate ah.. den got more space for pple to sit"
me- *wtf??* *tell ben*" got space but no chair wats the use?"
den got some looooong moments of peace...
3rd
me and benedict shared a hairdryer
Valerie(from far)-" there got one more hairdryer go and use"
none of us moved...den she came to us
Valerie-" boy, there got hairdryer u go there"
wats her prob sia... cannot shared meh.. not like will be slower rite.. 2 beside each other den u move the hair dryer around.. heat is shared=.=... brainless woman
den went parkway to get presents xD
le with le delbert... le hmmm le this le getting le hard le to le say
le got le soft le toy le for le both le of le them
le got le something le for le myself le too
le den le eat le mac le den le go le home
Monday, September 15, 2008
15 sept>if she think she can do anything she want in front of me jus to PISSED me off... den i think that she doesnt deserve my love anymore... my patience have reached the limit... she thinks i am irritating... den i shall continue to be to HER only... if thats wat she wants... the other 38 classmate can experience my other self... which i have not shown for secondary life... she make me suffered... now it is ur turn..BITCH... if she is seeing this.. den i feel happy for her... cus she noe i dun love her anymore... right? you wan to show me that u hate me alot... den i shld say... ok sure.. bring it on... i dun mind... show attitude la... i dun care... u make me wat i am now... over terrible pain...
haha today got english remedial... stupid lor... nid do summary.. den tomorrow nid to do summary again=.=
haha jean almost choked =D after yh say sooo many jokes =DD
den after summary... we went to library... wanted to study.. in the end laugh and laugh and laugh LOL...got pissed off... den ate at the cafe down there... ouch burnt my tongue and finger...
after that go home wif php.. the bus driver is wtf la... the whole bus so crammed den nvr even wait for pple to go down den close door... fker
den bought ice-cream to eat hahas
Sunday, September 14, 2008
14 sept>HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEANETTE! HAPPY 14 =D FINALLY GOT TO AGE 14... 2ND YEAR OF TEENAGE LIFE =D HAHAS xD
hahas today is damn tiring...
have a fit wif my sis...
she is... wtf...
anw did some quiz like jowie and here r the results
Your Love Style is Agape
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You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner.
Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare.
You are willing to sacrifice your world for your sweetie.
Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you.
For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.
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Your Love Life Secrets Are
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Looking back on your life, you will have a few true loves.
You've been deeply wounded in the past, and you're still recovering from that hurt.
You expect a lot from your lover - you want the full package. You tend to be very picky.
In fights, you are able to walk away and calm down. You are able to weather the storm.
Getting over a break-up doesn't take long. Easy come, easy go.
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Your Love Element Is Earth
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In love, you have consistency and integrity.
For you, love is all about staying grounded and centered.
You attract others with your zest for life and experiences.
Your flirting style is defined by setting the scene, creating a unique moment in time.
Steady progress and stability are the cornerstones of your love life.
You may take things too slowly, but you never put your heart at risk.
You connect best with: Fire
Avoid: Wood
You and another Earth element: need each other too much to build a good foundation
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Your Five Variable Love Profile
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Propensity for Monogamy:
Your propensity for monogamy is medium.
In general, you prefer to have only one love interest.
But it's hard for you to stay devoted for too long!
There's too much eye candy to keep you from wandering.
Experience Level:
Your experience level is medium.
You probably have had a couple significant loves.
And you may have even had your heart broken.
But you haven't really dated a wide variety of people.
Dominance:
Your dominance is medium.
You tend to be the one with more power.
You aren't a total control freak in relationships..
But of course you don't mind getting you way!
Cynicism:
Your cynicism is low.
You are an eternal optimist when it comes to love and romance.
No matter how many times you've been hurt - you're never bitter.
You believe in one true love, your perfect soulmate.
And if you haven't found true love yet, you know you will soon.
Independence:
Your independence is low.
This doesn't mean you're dependent in relationships.
It does mean that you don't have any problem sharing your life.
In your opinion, the best part of being in love is being together.
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Your Love Song Is
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Sitting, Waiting, Wishing by Jack Johnson
"Maybe you've been through this before
But it's my first time so please ignore
The next few lines cause they're directed at you
I can't always be waiting, waiting on you
I can't always be playing, playing your fool"
You've been waiting for love, and you're not going to wait any longer!
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Your Heart is Yellow and Green
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Your heart is caring and generous.
You are kind, understanding, and forgiving.
You bring objectivity and rationality to relationships.
You're good at giving your partner freedom and space.
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How You Are In Love
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You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often.
You tend to take more than give in relationships.
You need your space and privacy. You don't like to be smothered.
You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.
You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.
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Saturday, September 13, 2008
13 Sep>LOL 8 days nvr post already =DD
Last Sat and Sun
nothing much..
normal routine for weekends =D
jus that i "inherit" my sis laptop
Monday
first of sku..
mixed feeling hahas
den got english remedial..
den go home!
Tuesday
sku as usual...
ps cannot remember much..
after sku go donut factory wif the drama pple
den go home
Wednesday
WHEE!!!presentation finished!
jq tok too soft...
den he blame me say i nvr tell him
htf can i tell him when he is presenting...
jh was damn nervous
zavier also... i mean bag of -
nabil is ok.. speaking in his usual voice..
the funny funny voice LOL
anw after that went to the bubble tea shop wif the DRAMA GROUP PPLE AGAIN
den got some funny thing happened inside...
cant remember well..
Thursday
ahhh earliest day to reach home in the week =D
reached home at 2.50 hahahas
YTD
got promotion test...
and i sure pass it!!
cus... i THINK i am the only one my sir said not bad after everything
see.. is not i cannot pass... is i nvr go nia..LOL
wait.. cannot zi gua =D
if i am not wrong... i saw the guide's bus when i am marching to my sir hahas
den got some ATC shyt...
that weehong.. i mean peanuts(there is a story behind it)
was damn funny hahas...
no strength act got alot of strength
den like Mr Teo KK
except is he throw his marker at the whiteboard that metal thingy
den all his marker drop...
oh.. den he action action... he think he noe everything ah...
in the end go find the notes den read DIRECTLY from the notes
oh.. and he says whoever yawn or no posture immediately down 5..
ma'am esther said he do 3 face super red already... ask pple pump 5
in the end he pump 10 i think he die liao...
den the 4-man tent peg position i almost correct la...
miss few steps only..
and wee hong is a noob man...
3 peg = 1 vertical pole...
and he say is wrong.. WTF...
Today
blahblahblah... nothing much also =D
maybe ltr going out wif parents..
oh since benjamin said everyone do this quiz.. den i do lor
Name 20 people whom you know.G,B,G,B oh and wif the 2 dots on top of 1st G and last B oh and 10 from tk 10 from gm xD
1)Esther
2)Benjamin
3)Gloria
4)Marcus
5)Jeanette
6)Mardhi
7)Sufi
8)Shaun
9)Deepa
10)Benedict
11)Sally
12)Amos
13)Nicholette
14)Hafiz
15)Eunice
16)Qiu Guang
17)Jia Min
18)Ray
19)Shu Jing
20)Kim Hai
I have exactly 10 guys and 10 girls... 10 from each of my past or present sku
1. How did you meet number 15? GMPS 5Peace!
2. Do you love number 5? nah.. i love another one
3. What happens if number 1 goes out with number 20? oh they dunno each other although same sku
4. Have you bathe with number 13 ? WTF=.=NO way
5. Have you slap number 16's butt ? yeah... muscular butt =D LOL
6. If number 19 proposes to you, will you accept ? No... my sku "rival"
7. If number 10 left you all of a sudden and went with 17, what would you do? 10 is a boy.. y will we be attached.. anyway 10 dunno 17
8. Would you die for number 14 ? yeah... my good fren =D
9. Do you think number 12 is a hotty? No, but he's short and smart and and and.. he is not short
10. Do you think number 2 is wooing number 18 ? o.O benjamin woo someone who sucks finger?? brrr the sight of that thought make me shudder..
11. What do you think of number 7? oh a sweet girl.. ermm jus to tao hao mardhi =D
12. Do you have a crush on number 3 before ? no... but jq have LOL PS
13. If number 4 likes number 9 but number 9 likes you, what would you do ? i will probably give no.9 up.. she is my fren and cant go beyond that =D lol
14. What will you do if number 8 is suffering from cancer ? OMGGOMG... MY SQUADMATE NOOOOOO... oh.. i will ask all the rcy in our sku... to save him.. den i will ask the st john's to save him too... if not den i will ermm... cut him open and and.. opps
15. If number 11 buys a bra for number 6's birthday present, what do you think the colour would be ? oh.. no.6 would buy a bra for 7 which will be transparent =D.. i noe u mardhi... no. 11 dunno no.6
10 "lucky" people i've chosen to do this:
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lols...
1. Him
2. He
3. She
4. Her
5. They
6. Them
7. Everybody
8. Everything
9. Everyone
10. You!!!
without a heart... i cant live.. how do i catch up wif her... if u have tried go against wat ur soul wanted to do.... den u will experience wat i am experiencing now... being torn apart... the sad thing is... i cant forget about her... her smile.. her face... her eyes.. her words... I JUST CANT LET HER GO!!
Friday, September 5, 2008
>Today... 2D class outing!!
11 pple go only though...
( Jeanette, Esther, Gloria, Delbert, Benedict, Joaquin[or maybe Vanda Miss Joaquim LOL], Marcus, Yan Han, Me, Jowie and Philip )
but still...
its quite alot =D
first we met at orchard mrt station...
I REACHED THERE at 12.30 pm..
when we actually meet at 1pm=.=..
lucky i brought hist textbook and one storybook to read =D
hahas..
den when everyone reached liao..
we went to the wrong bus stop and have to go one big round back...
all because jowie PASS his GEOGRAPHY..
in the end we still manage to reach botanic garden( obvious right.. everyone pass geog=.= )
We played ice and water...
den the game of LIFE
den go TSC( eh not my name hor... is TAKASHIMAYA SHOPPING CENTRE )
den go home lor
each time i try to forget about u... my body is ripping apart... i feel like crying... maybe time will heal my heart... but i am not very sure about this... my heart have reached a state like a glass shattering into millions of piece... if i can forget about u... i think it is when i died... ...
Thursday, September 4, 2008
>lol... 3 boring days pass... only GOT MY MUM NAGGING NOW.. FK=.=
i have been trying to let u go... but will i succeed i will nvr noe... maybe its jus me... the stupid side of me... to be unwilling to let you go... i may not be strong to let you go.. but i will try my best... thank you for letting me noe some important facts in life... in love life... i believe its time i shld forget about you... however... imagine this... u took my heart and ran away in a straight path since last year... only now... i got up to get back my heart... it will take some time =DD
Monday, September 1, 2008
2 September 2008>lol ps very long nvr post liao
busy luhh
lets see...
Sunday!!
morning went swimming lesson as usual..
the whole one hr learning life saving..
den swimming cher say i strong so tow 1 FAT GUY
and HAVE TO PULL HIM OUT OF THE POOL...
SOOO HEAVY luhh..
but happy lorr cus cher say will find part-time lifeguard job for us
after we get our Bronze Medallion..
which is Lifesaving Test 4...
cher say lifesaving test 1 and 2 easy but 3 hard...
so mus prepare...hahas
den afternoon got tuition
suck la 3 hrs listen to cher toktoktok
damn sian hahas..
den directly after that
father fetch me den go suntec for COMEX
but traffic jam so go tampines mall
sis bought new laptop and i got her old laptop=.=
but better den nth luhh...
by the time reach home 10++ cannot use com liao
MONDAY!!ytd lols
nth much... stay at home play revise
realised i played too long liao hahas
den today leh...
same thing luhh
play and now typing this=.=
=DD=]]=}}=))
lols
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